I just spent 8 days tuck away in the blankets of my favorite persons bed sick as can be with a messy bed head and superhero panties while he laid next to me with a fever of 103.5 I wouldn’t have change it for the world. I think after 10 years of being with someone and doing absolutely nothing
and having fun doing it pretty much seals the deal were in it for life. I couldn’t be happier. I didn’t bring in the new year with a fresh list of what I want to do better and not do or some generic form of resolutions I never actually keep. I brought it in with happy thoughts, fresh blessings, and a vow to consume less, live more and just flat out be better. I still in the pit of my heart live for the chance to open my own clinic in the heart of Africa and a new year just brings it a little bit closer. My parents told me i need a break the other day , there right if find myself building myself up then using everything in my power to break myself down. My boyfriend tells my I need a brain reduction because I never stop thinking. He is probably right. With a new year I found a new grownup sense of faith, I found myself believing in everything including myself. It basically has become my philosophy to life. I think there comes a time when everything that made up your “whole life” changes and you realize how silly those things are and how important the new stuff is. I think I reach that point. It really isn’t how much money you have to show for something, what new drama you can wiggle into head into, or even who’s your friend one week and who isn’t. It really is about who you love, what you can give back to the world, and what selfless act you can do to change someone’s life without the least bit of expectation in return. Its about consuming less, living more, and enjoying it. I still find myself disappointed at the world and even myself because there is still so much suffering, so many hungry people, so many people that lost themselves and need anyone to care to pull them back in. I still somewhere in me believe we can somehow change this world, we can somehow all be happy, we can somehow make a vow to each other to take care of each other , I whole heartily believe there will one day be a world pure enough to live solely on peace and love. I promise I’ll do everything in my power to create something better. p.s. i want this chair. its love.
